The morning I found out my son was gay was heart-breaking!
He had left an envelope addressed to “Mum and Dad” on the kitchen table as he went out to work, and I found it about half an hour later. I opened it and read the letter inside.
After the first sew sentences my heart broke and I found myself on my knees sobbing. The intense feeling of sorrow, grief, guilt and dreams lost engulfed me. But the one feeling that took over was the need to hug my son and tell him I loved him and would always love him, and for him to come home where we would work through things together. No judgement or condemnation, just love. He had packed a bag and took all his cash not knowing whether he would be accepted home that evening!
My husband sent him a text message “We love you and will always love you. We will talk about this when you come home tonight.”
My son came home after work that day with the bag he packed that morning. My husband and I, with eyes full of tears, just hugged him. I couldn’t rest until he had felt settled at home and had unpacked his bag.
I am not saying that life was going to be easy, it is not, BUT I trust my son to God, and hope in Him for all things.
A few weeks before my son came out I had been at a ladies retreat day. During a time of ministry, the leader placed a shawl over each of us, and each shawl had a word sewn on to it. I didn’t know what word was on my shawl until the end of the day when I took it off. It read “Chosen”. I thought “Chosen for what?”
Now I know!
Eklektos is a Greek word meaning “Chosen”